Introduction

Life often takes us on unexpected paths, and for me, the journey began at the age of 11 when I was diagnosed with epilepsy. Growing up with this condition meant facing unique challenges, feeling isolated, and longing for a sense of normalcy that seemed just out of reach. In this blog, I’ll share my personal story of living with epilepsy, the impact it had on my childhood, the transformative effect of medication at 23, and how recent life changes have caused me to question the toll my job is taking on my health and well-being.

Challenges Faced in Adolescence

Diagnosed with epilepsy at 11 years old, my life took a sudden turn. While my friends were enjoying the freedom of their pre-teen years, I found myself grappling with a condition that felt like an unwelcome intruder. Seizures became a part of my life, and I had to navigate school, friendships, and family life with newfound restrictions.

Feeling Out of Control

Epilepsy left me feeling out of control. It was a lonely journey, as no one around me truly understood what I was experiencing. Friends and family tried to offer support, but the truth was that unless you’ve lived through it, you can never fully comprehend the overwhelming fear and vulnerability that epilepsy can induce.

Medication at 23: A Game-Changer

At the age of 23, my life took another turn when I was finally prescribed epilepsy medication. This marked a significant shift in my journey. It came with responsibilities – no more alcohol, a careful approach to life, and an understanding that my health and well-being must come first.

The seizures began to subside, giving me a taste of the normalcy I’d longed for. For the first time in years, I could envision a future free from the constant fear of impending seizures.

2019: A Year of Upheaval

In 2019, my life took an unexpected turn once again, this time due to significant family shifts. Remarkably, my epilepsy remained relatively stable, despite the emotional rollercoaster I was on. It was a testament to my resilience and the strength I had developed over the years.

The Impact of My Job and Recent Changes

At the end of 2021, I embarked on a new job, marking a significant shift in my professional life. The responsibilities and stress associated with my new role quickly began to take a toll on my health. Anxiety levels soared, and the constant shakes and hyperventilating episodes began to resurface, bringing my epilepsy back into the picture.

Is the Job Worth the Risk?

The question I now grapple with is whether this job, no matter how promising or rewarding, is worth jeopardizing my health. It’s a difficult decision, but I’m forced to acknowledge the importance of prioritizing my well-being.

Conclusion: Navigating the Uncertainty

My journey with epilepsy has been marked by resilience, responsibility, and a constant need to adapt to new challenges. While I’ve come to understand that epilepsy will always be a part of my life, it doesn’t have to dictate my choices. Balancing ambition with well-being is an ongoing struggle, and the journey continues. My recent experiences have highlighted the need to reassess my priorities and find a better balance between my career and my health. Ultimately, my well-being must take precedence, no matter how challenging that decision may be. The uncertainty is part of life’s tapestry, but my determination to live life on my terms remains unwavering.